Happiness

You never know when it might hit you, that you could of lost someone you loved to this terrible disease until you hear those magical words, you’re all done with treatment and we believe you have nothing to worry about. Even though I heard them yesterday it didn’t really hit me until today. I could of lost the most beautiful person in my life. Someone who I don’t think I could live without. I’ve said it before, I have so much to be thankful for and that couldn’t be more true. We dropped off our the presents for the senior citizen we adopted for Christmas and the social worker was so amazed at everything we were able to buy for Miss Sharon. I kept to a strict budget but with my Mom’s help I was able to get her everything on her list plus a little bit more. This woman has multiple health issues and must live in a group home. I wanted to be able to share that overwhelming joy I feel every time I look at my husband and know that I was granted another day with him with her. If you know me in real life you know that I love to give gifts. At the holidays especially, I’ve been known to go overboard. I am fully aware that my love language is giving gifts. Nothing makes me happier than watching people open presents I’ve chosen or made for them. This year it’s going to be a little different. We had to scale back what normally spend and be much more frugal but I’ve still managed to show the people I care about that I love them so much and that I am just so truly thankful for them. When I sat down to write this I was just overwhelmed with emotions, and if you saw me right now you’d see that I’m crying as I write this. I will never take one moment of happiness or one moment of laughter for granted.  I may not be able to shower my friends and family in gifts the way I’d like to this year but one thing I can do is shower them with love because I just feel like I’m brimming to the top with love and happiness despite the tears.  I couldn’t be happier to be spending the next few days with my husband and my family. This Christmas it doesn’t matter what’s under our tree, the only thing that’s important is that we’ll be together, and for that I am truly Thankful.

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